Breaking Matt - Part 2

"To you, O Lord, I call; my rock, be not deaf to me, lest, if you be silent to me, I become like those who go down to the pit. Hear the voice of my pleas for mercy, when I cry to you for help, when I lift up my hands toward your most holy sanctuary." - Psalm 28:1-2

Not be overly dramatic, but yesterday was extremely difficult. The withdraw from the Zoloft was very strong - cloudy head, very irritable. I was very tempted to throw in the towel and go get some Burger King for lunch. But then I would have felt very guilty and bad and then it would have been worse. So I did what preachers are supposed to do, I began to read the Bible. I did a simple word search on the word strength and was very comforted by what I found. The Psalm from above was very helpful for me. It really captured what I was feeling and wanted to express to God. Coming into this diet I knew it would be hard. I knew it would be the hardest thing that I have ever done. I did not realize just how difficult it would be.

This morning when I woke up, the cloudy head was gone. I do not feel as irritable and feel as though I am thinking clearly. I hope this means that the Zoloft is now about out of my system and all I need to face is the hunger. I wanted to share with you this morning about the faithfulness of God and His deliverance. He never promises that life will be easy, but he has promised that he will never leave me nor forsake me. I am learning how to find my strength in God for the first time. It's sad that it has taken 34 years for me to admit that I do all things in my own strength and I had to confess that as sin. I am overwhelmed that God still loves me and has provided strength for me. I want to close with Psalm 73:26 "My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."